2:00AM Wednesday morning
Well,today its an emotional day for me.....cos i have separated and no longer staying with my auntie and all the beloved cuz...
I thought im gonna be cool and steady but ...but....actually ....i........ realised im kinda sentimental at times...when i was driving back to my own house ,there are many thoughts appeared and pop up in my mind...how i came to this point in my life..the times that i have spend together with them for ages...there are ups and downs..how my auntie has treated me all these while..
I thought im gonna be cool and steady but ...but....actually ....i........ realised im kinda sentimental at times...when i was driving back to my own house ,there are many thoughts appeared and pop up in my mind...how i came to this point in my life..the times that i have spend together with them for ages...there are ups and downs..how my auntie has treated me all these while..
Until today, i have only one thing to say about my auntie...she is an awesome ,fantastic and caring auntie and mother that i have ever seen,giving out to people all the time without really expecting in return..many people are born takers...few of them are born givers, my beloved auntie is one of them..if you ask me who is the person i will care for other than family members..she will be the one...if you ask me who will be the one that cares for me other than my family members..she will be the one..the relationship between me and her somehow it’s hard to explain..it’s very chemistry...and very hard to put it in words...it’s like you know i will be there and she will be there somehow for each other...it’s really kinda hard to explain...she is the one and the only one auntie who has seen what i have gone through in my life since when i was a lil chap.....we kinda close and shez just like my second mother...there are times when i had casual conversation with her..i just realised how much she cares and loves her children...she doesn’t even mind to be alone for the sake of his sons’ future..she told me if all his children are going overseas and they are having a good living and making money..she doesn’t mind to be alone as long as she sees her sons’ are successful...she will save enough money to go to the high class old folks home and making frens....what a great mother on earth!!!!i think i didn’t say anything much that time but one thing for sure..one thing for sure..i realised i have tears in my eyes....and looking at her.....when i open my mouth, no words came out..i cant even utter a single word...i was so touched...by what she told me....
She is a responsible and independent mother...she took care of her husband who is my uncle...and he had gone ...gone to the heaven for sure...and watching all of us especially his children.....when my uncle was terminally ill..and it was the time i broke up with my ex....she even comforted me...and asked me to take care of myself...i cant forget that moments...i felt like so guilty and i tried to put myself in my aunt’s shoe and finally i have decided to move on and become stronger.....something that i have to repend from time to time...my auntie is very tough..and independent because she wants to take care of the family..on the other side of the coin, she is weak sometimes because she has no one to talk to previously and felt frustrated sometimes..everything juz keep by herself..but now..she’s more willing to share with the children and i have seen the children has changed...something that i felt relieved somehow...sometimes i tell myself when i see her alone, im gonna take care of her when she is old...whoever i am today is partly because of her...providing me the things that i need when i am in difficulty....she didn’t say much but just a simple smile and a few warm words like asking whether i have taken my meals or how’s my work and all that...i felt much much better....i think i never frown when i see her..lol...i will smile and talk to her...and i think i have never and never intended to bring any negative energy to the family....whatever problems outside the house i never bring home,if i were to bring home only into my room...bacause i think its not fair and its unhealthy to those people staying around me to get affected by my personal issues...lately..i have been staying in my room all the time..u know what i am trying to say...ahahahhahahaha......
To my cousin, the twin is not in Malaysia...but i would say i have a great relationship with both of them...both of them are believer..i am really happy and proud of them due to their achievement in their career, and they have a good virtue and good attitude when comes to things....very positive and optimistic...something that i have to learn...
To the rest of the three who i am staying with...we poke fun of each other....teasing each other.....support each other.....encourage each other....stick together when the times get tough...we talk cock...talk nonsense...talk shit...sing song and play computer games....everything also together..but i have to declare to you guys..i am not taking bath together with them ok??i am pretty decent..ehehhe..and very conservative..lol..(the biggest lie ever)ahahahha....Shin yih, i would say he is the closest person to me among them..cos winners think alike...we have the same wavelength..he definitely can be very successful in his life....but before that...we have tonnes of challenges to face and overcome before we reach our goals and dreams...me and him like a fighter..never give up..never back down and never lose faith...we are natural born winner...sometimes we talk alien language...blablabla.....but only he understand what the hell i am talking and i understand what he is mumbling and murmuring about.....shanq yeet, is the monash student, he is fucking smart..i would say fucking smart cos he likes when i say in this way....and he will laugh when he read this ‘shit’...he seems happy when i scolded him..and he scolded me computer idiot..which i admit i am but i have to tell u..the more he scold the more i want to ask for his help..eheheh.ahahahha...we will whack each other ,punch each other for no reasons...just because he said that he felt like punching me..of cos i punched back la..never give chance...but we really do get along pretty well...whereas michelle, she is definitely a sweet loving + pretty young 19 years old hot teenager...who has many admirers and secret fans going after her....lol...hot property!!!she is another smartass and hardworking.....she looks cool all the time when with strangers...when get to know her..wahahaha...(let you to finish it)well....we really can share some of the things together...and we can really talk...i mean really talk if we have the time...lol....shez lucky cos got one person teach her badminton and free of charge...the tuition fee is just let her to pour one cup of 100 plus and take it into my room...or she will knock my door and ask me whether wanna have icecream during the midnight....MIDNIGHT??? HALLO!!!!.THE WHOLE WORLD IS SLEEPING LA OI...i feel so cheap..lol..WAHAHHAHAHAHA......joking....mwahssssss.......
Well...i have lotz of unforgettable memories staying together with them i don’t dare to say 100% is good memories but i am humble enough to say 99.99% =)the reason why i wanna blog this post its because i want them to know how wonderful they have been in my life.....i want them to know how grateful and fortunate i am staying together with them.....and had giving me all those wonderful memory which i have stored in the gallery of my sweet memories...which will stay with me, accompany me for many ...many years to come or even till the last breath of my life......thanks for the memories....love you all ...and ...u guys rocks!!!!
